Former MLB utility man Drew Robinson was honored on World Suicide Prevention Day, throwing out the first pitch of Friday’s series opener between the Cubs and Giants at Wrigley Field. Robinson tried to take his own life last April, surviving a suicide attempt that cost him his right eye. The 29-year-old made a successful comeback this season, appearing in 38 games for the Giants’ Triple-A affiliate in Sacramento before announcing his retirement.
The aftermath of Robinson’s suicide attempt, miraculously surviving after shooting himself in the head (he had left a suicide note on his kitchen counter), was chronicled in an ESPN documentary released earlier this year with an accompanying profile written by Jeff Passan. “I just felt like the world was ending,” said Robinson, who remembers being crippled by self-doubt while seesawing between the majors and Triple-A. “It was totally paralyzing.”
Robinson, now 29, has found a new purpose as a mental health advocate in the Giants’ organization, sharing his experience with depression while stressing the importance of seeking help. “How can I go through this and not find a way to try to help other people or impact other people's lives?" Robinson expressed to Passan. “This was a huge sign. A huge, painful sign that I'm supposed to help people get through something that they don't think is winnable."
Robinson still struggles at times, but no longer in silence. “People that love you want to hear it, and if you don't have people that love you, therapists want to hear it. So many people in this world are willing to help anyone going through these things. You're never alone,” said Robinson, who takes prescribed antidepressants and meets with a therapist multiple times a week. “I don't have it all figured out, but I'm working on it. You don't just achieve self-growth. You don't get to a point where you just have it and you don't have to work at it again.”
Credit the Cubs for a nice gesture and promoting a worthy cause, furthering the conversation about mental health and suicide prevention.