During a previously recorded interview for the Hay House - Chasing the Present Summit, Ed Sheeran opened up about his “very addictive personality” that resulted in him binging on food and alcohol throughout the early days of his success.
Additionally, Ed spoke to the American self-help book publisher about how he had struggled with panic attacks and disliked the way he looked after becoming famous. Pinpointing his 2014-15 180-date world tour as a particularly challenging period for him, Ed reflected on the loneliness of touring, “It’s all fun and games at the start, then it starts getting just sad. So I think that’s probably the lowest that I’ve been and I kind of ballooned.” Resulting in him getting rather existential, “I felt, 'What was the point?' In a dark way, like, 'Why am I around? What is the point?'"
At another point in the interview, Ed who was signed to Elton John's management company at the start of his career revealed that when reading his mentor's autobiography he began to notice parallels between them. "There are so many things that he did that I do," the star explained. "He would be like, ‘I would just go on an ice cream binge and eat four desserts until I threw up,’ and I was like, I've done that before. Or his martini binges, where he sees how many martinis he can drink. And I'm like, I've done that before too."
“I’m covered in tattoos and I kind of don’t do things by halves so if I’m gonna drink, I see no point in having a glass of wine. I’d rather have two bottles.” Further stating, "with addiction, its very hard to moderate but moderation is the key.”
Ultimately, the English crooner credits his wife, Cherry, and adapting to a healthier lifestyle in helping him turn his life around. "She exercises a lot, so I started going on runs with her. She eats quite healthily so I started eating quite healthily. She doesn't drink that much so I wasn't drinking," he said. "I think that all changed things.”
Ed, just like every other human on this planet, is simply seeking happiness. After his latest album No. 6 Collaborations Project reach number one last year, he decided to take a brief pause, taking step back from music for the remainder of 2020.
"You can sense when the public are like, 'We've had enough now,'" he claimed in regards to the album's reception. "One of the important things in the industry is to know when not only to give yourself a break, but to give the public a break.” Adding, “I finished my tour and then I was like, ‘I should probably try and find something else to give me happiness that isn’t my work’.”
During his time off, the musician dedicated to spend his time on a different type of art, the kind with the paintbrush.
"I basically bought 30 canvases and I painted a canvas a day for 30 days and it was really fun.” Admitting that his creations give off an abstract Jackson Pollock vibe, “I just bought house paint and then I would just layer it up by flicking it”. Unfortunately, we’ll only be able to visualize these probable masterpieces, as Sheeran has no intention on sharing, “I don't sell my art. I just love doing it. No one else needs to judge.”
With that said, despite keeping his canvases private and taking a break from releasing music, Sheeran says he's in the process of working on new music. This time, treating his studio sessions as a "nine to five" job, in an effort to maintain a healthy work-life balance and spend more time with his wife.