Billie Eilish Admits to Feeling 'Trapped by This Persona That I Have Created'


2019 was a pretty incredible year for Billie Eilish. She shot to superstardom, became the youngest ever artist to hit the one billion streams mark, performed at Coachella, oh and won five GRAMMYs, nbd.

2020 was looking to be just as incredible, as she planned to travel the globe on her Where Do We Go? World Tour, which unfortunately had to be halted due to the coronavirus pandemic.

But before all that, just 4 days after her sweep at the GRAMMYs, Billie sat down with GQ to talk about everything - from how her and brother FINNEAS started making music together, to how the way she dresses, or portrays herself for that matter, should be no ones business but hers.

But since it seemed as though everyone has made it there business to comment on, the 18-year-old superstar had something to say back and planned to deliver her anti-body shaming message all across the world in a powerful video as part of her arena tour.

In the interview, Billie expressed feeling “trapped” by the way she portrays herself in the spotlight. “Sometimes I dress like a boy. Sometimes I dress like a swaggy girl. And sometimes I feel trapped by this persona that I have created, because sometimes I think people view me not as a woman.”

She continued, “that tour video was about all that. It is me saying: look, there is a body underneath these clothes and you don’t get to see it. Isn’t that a shame? But my body is mine and yours is yours. Our own bodies are kind of the only real things which are truly ours. I get to see it and get to show it when I want to.”

In the visceral visual, Eilish is seen stripping down to her bra as she sinks into a dark pool of water. Accompanied by a chillingly honest narration, Billie asks, “would you like me to be smaller? Weaker? Softer? Taller? Would you like me to be quiet? Do my shoulders provoke you? Does my chest? Am I my stomach? My hips? The body I was born with – is it not what you wanted? If I wear what is comfortable, I am not a woman. If I shed the layers, I’m a slut. Though you’ve never seen my body, you still judge it and judge me for it. Why?”

The video is concluded by Billie succinctly letting those who need to hear know, that others opinions of her are simply, “not my responsibility.”

Eilish also spoke about lessening her use of social media. “Look, I am clickbait at the moment. Anything with my name on it or anything I say or do can and will be used against me. I don’t watch people’s [Instagram] Stories, I quit Twitter a couple of years ago, I look at the occasional meme and I feel bad that I don’t post more, as the fans want it, but I have nothing to post. Honestly. Zip.”

However, in the midst of nationwide civil unrest. Billie did have something to post and took to social media to express her feelings calling for justice for George Floyd, who was murderd at the hands of Minneapolis police officer Derek Chauvin.

Billie has been quite vocal during these unprecedented times, joined by the likes of Katy Perry and Rihanna, using their platform to stand up and demand a stop to systemic racism and police brutality.

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