Rachel Lindsay is sharing intimate details about her journey as the first-ever Black lead of “The Bachelorette.”
In her new book “Miss Me With That: Hot Takes, Helpful Tidbits, and a Few Hard Truths,” Lindsay is spilling the details about her time on “The Bachelorette.”
“I wanted to write the book because my life has changed so much, and so much of what I was doing was dictated by fear,” Lindsay said in an interview with the University of Texas at Austin’s The Alcalde Magazine. “And being treated as the country’s most eligible Bachelorette — there’s a level of perfection that’s attached to you. And we are so far from that. So, I almost wanted to break myself down from that image.”
Lindsay, an attorney, was first introduced to the franchise when she appeared on Nick Viall’s season of the ABC series. The following year she appeared as the first Black Bachelorette making history.
While sharing these details, the 36-year-old noted how she knows that fans of “The Bachelor” franchise will pick up her book to learn more about the show’s scandals.
“When I share anything about the show that I haven’t disclosed before (and we can all agree I have had tons to say), my intention isn’t to spill the tea. … Just understand that my intention is not to gossip about or hurt your favorites. If anything, I expose no one more than myself,” Lindsay said about the book.
The star also dives deep into mental health within the show in her tell-all.
“And it’s probably my favorite in the book because I talk about how I got into therapy and why. It’s interesting in the journey I go through, and the stigma in the community when it comes to Black people … you’re supposed to pray your problems away,” she said. “I struggled with religion versus therapy, but that is what has kept me grounded. That is what’s kept me sane. Meditating, yoga, just taking a break.”
During her time on the show, Lindsay revealed that she saw a therapist despite passing a psychological evaluation.
However, she released a shocking revelation about the franchise.
“The show doesn’t like contestants going to therapy. (Save those emotional outbursts for the camera, please and thank you),” she wrote. “The producers prefer to have complete control over your actions and access to your conversations, but they cannot mic you during a session because they are required to honor privacy.”
Lindsay will share shocking details throughout her book, including the drama between her and Chris Harrison.
Since Chris Harrison stepped down as host of the franchise, Lindsay said people blame her for the decision.
In an interview with Lindsay, Harrison defended past racist social media posts from recent “Bachelor” contestant Rachael Kirkconnell.
Photos of Kirkconnell showed her attending a racially insensitive college party in 2018. Harrison has since apologized for defending Kirconnell, admitting, “I am not a perfect person.”