Meghan Markle sat down for an interview with Oprah Winfrey on Sunday night, and during their talk, Markle said that she contemplated suicide during her time as a royal.
“I just didn’t see a solution,” Meghan said.
Markle commented on the harrowing emotional moment, and how difficult but necessary it was to get help.
“Look, I was really ashamed to have to say it at the time and ashamed to have to admit it to Harry especially, but I knew that if I didn’t say that I would do it,” the duchess added. “I just didn’t want to be alive anymore.”
“It takes so much courage to admit you need help, to admit that you need help, to admit how dark of a place you’re in,” Markle added.
Markle said she was discouraged to seek help 'because it wouldn't be good' for the royal palace
Despite her admittance, Markle also said that she was discouraged by the royal palace to seek help for her mental health "because it wouldn't be good for the institution."
Prince Harry says he and Markle are expecting a baby girl
It was one of many confessions during the highly anticipated interview. Another one was when Prince Harry told Winfrey that he and Markle are expecting a baby girl "in summer time."
Prince Harry: Prince Charles stopped taking my calls
While speaking to Oprah, Prince Harry also said that his father Prince Charles did not answer calls from him and his wife leading up to their stepping down from royal duties.
Harry said he and Markle did not "blindside" the royal family with their decision.
"No. I've never blindsided my grandmother I have too much respect for her," he said.
Harry said he tried consulting with many people close to him — "all the places which I thought I should go to to ask for help" — before making the big decision official, and said that eventually, his father stopped returning his attempts to reach out.
"When we were in Canada I had three conversations with my grandmother and two conversations with my father before he stopped taking my calls," saying that he tried to be as transparent with the royal family as he could.
Markle: Kate Middleton made me cry
In another bombshell moment, Markle touched on a dispute that she had with the Duchess of Cambridge, disputing a rumor that she made Prince William’s wife Kate Middleton cry during her wedding preparations, and claiming that the opposite was actually true.
"A few days before the wedding she was upset about something pertaining to flower girl dresses. It made me cry, it really hurt my feelings," Markle told Winfrey during the iTV interview, per CNN.
Markle said that although the incident occurred, she harbored no hard feelings toward Middleton, who she called “a good person.”
“There was no confrontation,” she told Winfrey, explaining that she forgave Middleton.
"I don't think it's fair to her to get into the details of that, because she's apologized," she said -- but the hard part was being publicly and relentlessly "blamed for something I didn't do, but happened to me."
The interview was one of Markle’s most direct instances of addressing tension with the royal family after she and Prince Harry severed their institutional ties with the crown.
“They were willing to lie to protect other members of the family but they weren’t willing to tell the truth to protect me and my husband,” Markle said, per Harper’s Bazaar royal editor Omid Scobie.