Michelle Williams once felt on top of the world after announcing her engagement to Chad Johnson. However, her depression couldn't be masked and after falling into a rage, she ended her relationship and checked into a facility. This was July 2018.
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Now, in her new memoir, Checking In, the singer revealed that opening up about her depression actually saved her life. In a recent interview for CBSN, Williams revealed she actually "felt like a hypocrite" when she first broke the news that she was in a treatment center. As someone who sings about "empowerment," she found herself doing the very thing she told others to.
The interviewer explained how depression is often misunderstood and even referenced a point in Williams' book where she stated, "I remember telling someone on our team at the time, 'hey I feel like I might be depressed.' And he was like, 'what do you have to be depressed about? You guys signed a multi-million dollar deal. You're about to go on tour...'"
Williams never defined depression in her book— since it's different for everyone— but explained, "once I got the official diagnosis in my 30s, it's [actually] been something I've been dealing with before the music industry [...] I think people mean well." She also explained that now she feels people have better tools to help someone who may be struggling with mental issues by asking questions like "how can I best serve you during this time?," do I need to help you find a therapist?," and "what can I do to help you in this time?"
Williams also discussed the decision to professionally go by Michelle, instead of Tenitra and the anger/fear associated with that. She ultimately wants people to grasp the importance of "checking in" with themselves, God, and with others. It's also not a one-off tool, but something to use on a daily basis. Checking In is available everywhere books are sold.
Audacy's I’m Listening initiative aims to encourage those who are dealing with mental health issues to understand they are not alone. If you or anyone you know is struggling with depression or anxiety, know that someone is always there. Additionally, the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is available 24 hours a day, 7 days a week at 1-800-273-8255.