During his recent visit to the Man Enough podcast, Shawn Mendes openly spoke about a recent argument he had with girlfriend Camila Cabello and how it scared him into learning to "Treat You Better.” You as in Camila of course, not us (we wish).
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"I raised my voice at her and she was like, ‘I don't like it when you raise your voice. Why did you raise your voice?' And I got so defensive." Shawn went on, "I was like, ‘I wasn't raising my voice at you!' And I did raise my voice at her. And I felt her shrink and I felt me grow and I was like, ‘Oh god, this is the worst.' I'm so terrified of being evil. I'm so scared to be bad. I don't want to be bad.”
That deep-rooted fear prompted the couple to "get in this massive conversation" to address his concerns of making sure he’s never perceived negatively.
"Maybe there even is bad inside of me, and I have to just accept that," he admitted on the podcast. "And that other part of me, he's just got to be here and we've just got to work together until eventually he gets worked in all of the trauma and all of the kinks get rubbed out of him and he's OK. But I can't avoid the fact that there's a little bit of darkness inside of me and letting that darkness kind of be present is a horrible feeling.”
Removed from the moment Shawn came to the realization that he still hadn't handled their situation well and apologized. "I made it about my evil and my fear, and she comforted me," he recalled. "And then it took me like 20 minutes of us separately reading our books to be able to come back to her and be like, 'God, that was a whole thing and I'm really sorry.’"
Looking back at his emotions at the time, Shawn admitted, “You think you're being vulnerable and saying the right thing, but you're really just defending yourself even better.”
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