It's impossible for Katie Toupal of Anoka to forget that night in Las Vegas two years ago.
For some reason, the memories of that Jason Aldean concert on Oct. 1, 2017 hurt Katie even more.
"I feel like I'm a little more emotional this year than I was last year, I don't know if it's because life is actually going on," she said.
"But it's still not any easier."
On that night, Katie was there when shots rang out in rapid fire from the Mandalay Bay Hotel. More than 1,100 rounds of ammunition rained down on the crowd at the Route 91 Harvest Music Festival.
58 died. More than 400 were wounded.
Katie, an on-air personality at Minneapolis-based country music station The Wolf 102.9 FM, was not hurt.
"I feel a lot of guilt, still, because I did see a lot of people die, and I didn't," Katie said. "I just don't understand, why me and not them?"
Since that day, there have been more mass shootings in the US.
"I definately don't think we've made any progress because it keeps happening," she said. "Yeah, the number hasn't been as high as 58, but it's still been pretty bad."
Attending concerts across the country remains Katie's passion. She has noticed an increase presence of armed security guards at concerts, and praises venues that require people to use only clear-plastic bag when they attend events.
But it will always be on her mind.
"That's always been my thing. People travel, I go to concerts. I'm just more aware now of what's around me. I thank security guards as I walk in and I thank police officers as I walk past them.