"If only I were a star, then everything would be alright." You've probably said that at some point in your life as you witness the parade of glitz and glamour of celebrities smiling and waving on award show red carpets, concerts stages, and on the big and small screen.
Singer Camila Cabello has shared her struggles with mental health in a new essay in the Wall Street Journal’s magazine for Mental Health Awareness Month which will surely give you a little more clarity about the fact that, yes, celebrities really are just like us.
The "Shameless" singer admits her anxiety and obsessive-compulsive tendencies while not in the spotlight did not reflect the positive, confident woman that she personified on stage. She explains while her social media feeds may have portrayed the 23-year-old at the height of popularity, recording in fancy studios, wearing incredible outfits, and adorable cuddle sessions with her dog and boyfriend (Eugene and Shawn respectively) - the reality was that her symptoms made her feel as if she wasn't in control.
“I didn’t want to tell you what was going on for the same reason a lot of us don’t want to talk about what it feels like to be at war in our minds and in our bodies," says Cabello. "I was embarrassed and ashamed... That same little voice also told me maybe I was being ungrateful for all the good in my life - and that hiding the open wound I’d been avoiding the last few years was the easiest and fastest solution.”
"My anxiety manifested in the form of obsessive compulsive disorder," she admits. "OCD can take many different forms, and for me it was obsessive thoughts and compulsive behaviors. To put it simply, it made me feel like my mind was playing a cruel trick on me."
In order to push past her anxieties, Camila realized that she needed to speak to someone about her struggles, and that is when things started to turn around for her. Cabello has since sought treatment, including meditation, therapy, and breathing exercises - and says she now listens to her inner voice as if it were a "good friend."
"I know she's just trying to keep me safe, but I don't give her too much attention. And I sure as hell don't let her make any decisions."
Ever moving forward, Camila recently teamed up with Mastercard to offer some at-home jam sessions for fans "inspired to invoke a sense of nostalgia for you guys & me," she explained on Twitter.
The first was released on Wednesday, May 27th and the second night will be available on June 3rd.
RADIO.COM’s I’m Listening initiative aims to encourage those who are dealing with mental health issues to understand they are not alone. If you or anyone you know is struggling with depression or anxiety, know that someone is always there. Additionally, the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is available 24 hours a day, 7 days a week at 1-800-273-8255.